Not even a little?
It’s common knowledge that whenever you have a group of people that has a majority of females.. that an obnoxious amount of drama is inevitable. I would be lying if I said I didn’t take part (don’t hate me). I don’t start it but I do make sure I get my two cents in. It doesn’t help that ever since I had my daughter, I have the emotional stability of a sand castle in a tidal wave. There was.. an incident(? for lack of a better word) within said group where one member basically said half of the league has no talent. Obviously, since I only started playing derby in January, I’m not absolutely amazing. However, I would say that I’m definitely an asset to my team. I hate politics. By no means would I even pretend to be interested in them. But because we are an organization that has to maintain a professional image, there is a painful amount of politics flying through the air. The president of the league was bombarded with emails and facebook messages reporting the member for what she said. She is a part of our league team and posted this rude opinion on our FAN PAGE. It’s one thing to do it where only people in the league can see it, but for outsiders to see? Please. Do us all a favor and just keep it to yourself.
To make the situation even more angering, the girls on the team that share this opinion started complaining that no one in the league was supporting them for the bout they played last night. Seriously? The original comment wasn’t even instigated by an active member of the league! A girl that moved back to the states was questioning the league team’s lack of other league members (it was one team plus one girl from the other two teams). But because the girl was part of my team LAST YEAR, they tried to make it seem like we were the ones being hostile and crap. Gah. This is why I have so few female friends. The truth is forever being twisted and manipulated to suit their needs. Makes me just want to slap them.
However, because my team is full of girls that can put their feelings aside for the good of the team/league, we showed up to the bout last night and cheered our hearts out. And we STILL got looks of disbelief from the girls playing. I would have left at half time but I wanted to watch them lose. I know that sounds bad.. but they need to be knocked down a few pegs. They lost.. but they’re acting like they won. Which is annoying. They’re all posting statuses like “A team that prays together, wins together, and we even go to church together!” COME ON!! Derby is about skill and dedication. That can only come from you. God isn’t going to stick his metaphorical foot out and trip a girl on the opposing team to help you win. That’s not how it works. You can pray that no one breaks a bone or gets otherwise seriously injured.. but praying that you win shows a lack of understanding of religion and an unfortunate skewed sense of faith. Pray for the strength to push yourself, even when you’re exhausted. But I find it insulting that people are praying for a win.. and I don’t even go to church.
On a happier note, I found out my husband will be coming home in two weeks. My heart stopped when he told me.. only because I never thought this day would come. We’re starting over.. forgetting about how bumpy and hard our first year of marriage was. We’ve come together as a couple with a different kind of love. It seems like puppy love from the outside, but it’s really just us saying everything we didn’t say last year. Well.. the last two years? Yeesh.. our two year anniversary is in four months. It seems like I just moved here a month ago and like our daughter was born yesterday.
Anywho, when you mush together the entirety of this entry, all I’m trying to say is that great things and horrible things will happen at the same time. Maybe not always, but it does happen. It is up to all of us to decide how we feel. I know I need to work on this.. so don’t take this at face value and call me a hypocrite or try to implement a “monkey see, monkey do” type deal. It’s kind of like that famous quote “no one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” Personify your emotions and let them run free but make sure they’re yours and not the ones others are trying to drag out of you. And that.. is my two cents for now.